Monday, December 9, 2019

His new home.

  This is the new home for JeremyRyanMiller.com.  It’s his new home, or at least I hope it will be, if only in remembrance.  If you found your way here and did so on purpose, then you probably already know me.  I’m his dad, TODD.  Damn it.  I WAS his dad, what seems like a lifetime ago.  I let things fall away for a long time, not really being able to bear the pain of continuing to hold on like he was still with us.  Life moves on, even when we don’t want it.  But lately, I’ve been feeling his absence like it was brand new.  There are reasons why that should be so, but I don’t think any of them are the actual cause of this fresh pain.  I give you fair warning that I intend to dig around and stir up memories here.  If you are one of the many who loved him, it may get heavy, and it most definitely will be painful at times.  But it will also be worth it.  To remember him again.  To feel him again.  Jeremy, I miss you terribly.  I’ve never been the same since you left, but I don’t think I would even want to be.  I love you.
Dad